today is day 40. i never realized just how much yoga would change and affect me.
-physically, i lost 19 pounds (ahem, really 18.8, but may i count the .2?). i see and feel muscles that i haven't been able to in - seriously - over 10 years. but really? it goes much deeper than that....
-i am strong. i have much much more weight to lose, but MY body, the size that it is, the weight that i still carry, MADE IT. i MADE it. my body may be imperfect, but i am strong. and both my body and my mind made it through this challenge. i can hold poses that i never thought i could, and was FAR from holding, just 40 days ago. neither my body nor my mind failed me.
(this has been on my bathroom mirror for the past 40 days)
-i eat mindfully. i've worked very hard these past 40 days, and i don't want to get back to where i started. i will NEVER be back to that weight, or how i felt emotionally, again. i am not strict in that i won't eat 'bad' food, but i am mindful about it. i still log everything at www.myfitnesspal.com.
-i am still thirsty. my google reader is full of positive, motivating blogs. i signed up for a 2-yr. subscription to 'yoga journal.' i want to constantly improve - spiritually, physically, emotionally and financially.
-i am more confident in that perhaps people aren't judging me as much as i thought they were. i am more than just an overweight, quiet girl. :) i have a lot to offer. i put myself out there, opening up to people, by just going to the yoga studio... and i have met some extremely amazing people.
my first goal is at it's end. and i met it. i practiced yoga for 40 days. in a row. but, this is not the end. this is the beginning.
i am jeri.
i am strong.
i am open.
i am thirsty.
i am constantly improving.
i am - on my way - to happy.
(after my last hot class on day 40)
-until next time,
jeri
