i do believe some of it was ego.
over the past 4 months since i've practiced in the studio, i have continued (well, stopped, started, stopped, started) my journey.
i really started again - for the final time - on 06.11.12. over those 4 months that i was absent, i had gained back 8 pounds. i did not feel good. it's because i didn't practice yoga nor track what i ate. i know it is, and i knew i would gain if i didn't. i need to figure out why i let myself do that. again.
since june 11th:
- - - i have decided to move at least 30 minutes 5 times a week
- - - i have decided to log what i eat
- - - i have fallen in love with green smoothies
- - - i have a husband and children who are with me during my journey (the kids love the smoothies! and want to exercise! my husband and i joined a gym and go together)
- - - i have introduced my mom to the yoga studio (it's amazing to share my experience with her)
- - - i have lost 8.2 (i have to count the .2!) pounds
- - - i feel stronger - both physically and mentally
- - - i have found ME again
I AM BACK.
nothing compares to how i feel after a yoga class. now that mom practices, she can understand, but i don't think you can truly understand unless you try it. :)
i still have my moments - we all do. i try to fight back the tears and anger i feel when i can't get into a pose because of my fat (yep, i know) or when i see myself in the mirror at the gym. i am angry because i let myself get this way. i am angry because i KNOW i could do it, if i weren't so overweight. but, i'm THERE. i'm working on it. i'm working on ME. i remember my strength. and i remember that i'm a work in progress.
I AM BACK. and i'm loving it.
until next time,
-j
(both photos from pinterest)
