{I'M} Back!

i had been away from the yoga studio since february.  i know, i know.  it's hard for me to believe, especially as i read through my old posts about how much i love yoga.  i don't know why it took me so long to get back into the studio. 

i do believe some of it was ego.

over the past 4 months since i've practiced in the studio, i have continued (well, stopped, started, stopped, started) my journey. 

i really started again - for the final time - on 06.11.12.  over those 4 months that i was absent, i had gained back 8 pounds.  i did not feel good.  it's because i didn't practice yoga nor track what i ate.  i know it is, and i knew i would gain if i didn't.  i need to figure out why i let myself do that.  again.

since june 11th:
- - - i have decided to move at least 30 minutes 5 times a week
- - - i have decided to log what i eat
- - - i have fallen in love with green smoothies
- - - i have a husband and children who are with me during my journey (the kids love the smoothies!  and want to exercise!  my husband and i joined a gym and go together)
- - - i have introduced my mom to the yoga studio (it's amazing to share my experience with her)
- - - i have lost 8.2 (i have to count the .2!) pounds
- - - i feel stronger - both physically and mentally
- - - i have found ME again

I AM BACK.

nothing compares to how i feel after a yoga class.  now that mom practices, she can understand, but i don't think you can truly understand unless you try it. :)

i still have my moments - we all do.  i try to fight back the tears and anger i feel when i can't get into a pose because of my fat (yep, i know) or when i see myself in the mirror at the gym.  i am angry because i let myself get this way.  i am angry because i KNOW i could do it, if i weren't so overweight.  but, i'm THERE.  i'm working on it.  i'm working on ME.  i remember my strength.  and i remember that i'm a work in progress.

I AM BACK.  and i'm loving it.

until next time,
-j

(both photos from pinterest)

i {miss} be yoga

this title makes me think of the poem from the movie 'my girl:'

i like ice cream

a whole lot

it tastes great

when days are hot

on a cone

or in a dish

this would be

my only wish

vanilla chocolate

rocky road

even with pie

a la mode

i don't know if those are the correct words, but that's how i remember them. 

mmm....ice cream!!! 

speaking of ice cream, meet my new favorite flavor - jimmy fallon's late night snack!  and yes, those are real potato chips (I KNOW!!):

i haven't been to the yoga studio in (GASP) 10 days.  i need to get out of the feeling-guilty-about-not-being-with-my-kids-and-having-someone-else-pick-them-up-and-needing-to-do-laundry-etc. thing and go ahead and sign up for another month (and another, and another).  home practices don't cut it for me.  there is nothing that compares to the feeling of practicing in my yoga studio (be yoga, i heart you).

since the end of the 40-day, i have a taken a little break from logging everything i eat, and i've even had (GASP again) ICE CREAM.  real, fattening ice cream.  i also ran a mile and a half.  again, just a start. ;)  as of today, i'm down 20 pounds since i started the 40-day. 

even though i've lost weight, i don't feel as grounded nor as at peace.

i miss be yoga

a whole lot

i really love it

especially hot

in the zone

feeling all zen

breathing out

and breathing in

i will sign up

and i will go

to the be yoga

studio

i also composed a rap in sixth grade, but i will spare you.

-until later,
jeri